The onsen's been quiet since they announced the tournament, so I've taken up making paper flowers. I'm not very good at it, though.

I sort of want to be a healer... I might go ask if they need help at the healer's tent. But I don't know anything about healing or medicine or anything.

I couldn't bring myself to watch the tournament... it's just too awful. So much blood and death and violence and it scares me. I did see a huge man in flowing black clothes shouting and laughing about something, and they took some brown-haired man on a stretcher to the healers tent, and I got scared at that point.

There're more fights today... maybe I'll watch after all? Or maybe I'll just go hide in the healers tent after all.

Business at the onsen has slowed a little, but there's still dust everywhere and everything has to be kept clean. So I still work and work ;_;.

There's a tournament... everyone keeps talking about it, but I don't want to enter. I don't want to be killed ;_; I can't even keep from scalding myself while cleaning, there's no way I can fight. I want to remember more, though... like that young man that I vaguely remember. He helped me work a few times, and was a student somewhere... there was something about him and the girl that also helped me but I don't remember.

Miss Manager gets mad when I sneak away to sit on the porch and stare at the snow.

Miss Manager is so nice... she reminds me of someone who was also very nice, someone who took care of me and was always very kind, though she was so young and had so much responsibility...

But I can't remember her name. How sad...

My job isn't too bad. It's hard carrying heavy futons and rearranging furniture, though. I'm not very strong, and I trip if I can't see my feet.

Everyone here is so nice, though... and I finally won in that contest thing. I might play again.

Waaah, we have to go clean the rooms again T_T

An onsen... it seems like such a beautiful, relaxing place. I want to work there... I applied, but no one's called back yet...

It's so cold lately... the bonfire was lovely, though. Thank you, Mister Deidara.

But now I'm cold again... I just want to curl up...

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A nightmare last night.... I dreamt of a tall, large, terrifying man with a chisel who yelled at me. I woke up in tears. Did I know such a fearsome man, or was it just a dream?

I wish I knew why he screamed at me... and why I felt so terrible about it... perhaps this job will take my mind off things.

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Tomoyo-san... I'm going to go do the laundry, okay? I should get used to cleaning..

I didn't like being a ghost.... no one could see me... and I couldn't eat....

It was so cold and lonely....

but somehow, being cold and lonely felt familiar... like I've been there before...

I want to do productive things... but I don't have a job, and the thought of trying to find a job makes me feel exhausted and helpless...

Someone scolded me today for trying to tend the rose bushes. He was very rude. I hope I don't see him again.

I.. I tripped on the dress...and I fell through a wall....

I'm so cold, and people can't see me...

did I die? am I really a ghost?

((OOC: she covered herself in flour and begged a thrift store to lend her a wedding dress to wear as part of her ghost costume, since she has no job (I need to fix that...))

I don't have any money... It's cold, and all I do is sleep... I feel bad... Tomoyo-san is always working and busy helping everyone, and I just sleep or eat...

I want to do something... to be useful to everyone...

It's getting so cold... maybe I should rake the leaves for everyone, into a bonfire! Then tbey can warm up, and there won't be leaves everywhere!

Ah... it'll be lovely. I feel as though I've always liked fall. I wonder if I did.

.....everything was burned up.

I didn't have anything. I don't have any money. I should look for a job, but I'm so tired and have no motivation. But everyone's lost everything.

I'll help distribute water. A lot of people are coughing and choking. They need nice cold water. It would make them feel better.

Oh... and whoever saved me, thank you.

((OOC: So, Sayoko will be going around accidentally spilling water on everyone. Poor girl... XD;;)

A-...

....

I'm so hungry... I need to go home, and eat...

...home?

Where am I?

uwahh....